Saturday, May 19, 2007
jackie pullinger's seminar was an eye opener..strangely enough.. from the time she stepped on the stage, her presence felt me abashed. at the beginning i didn't knw why... i jus somewhat knew tt she was someone of great imptance..(tt's becos i didn't knw what she did and who she was! i'm a frog living in my own well) she taught me tt god's word is our life and it must be practised and not jus read but done in action.. and there she was goin all out.. she's an eurporean woman goin into hongkong speaking jus like one of the locals. i was amazed... she took drug addicts into her house.. lived n ate with them.. with no resources no fundings.. but jus god's word,faith and her believe and love for the poor... there were things she said like...these pple haven sat and ate with their families for years and when they came to singapore and sat with the families they lived with, they were so touched..one thing i noticed abt her was tt she kept talkin abt us having all the funny equipment in front of her and she wanted them to be turn off becos she didn't like it and obviously there wasn't a need to have them(i think tt was what she was indirectly saying) which made me feel even smaller... i jus wanted to hide.. here stands a woman who doesn't rely on such sophisticated machines, money and yet she accomplished much.. she said tt minisitry with the poor didn't have to start with a committee, fundings, not a need for a nice air-conditioned room NONE OF TT!(she sorrta shouted tt into the microphone) all we had to do was to start with one person.. just offerin something.. she also said tt the poor dun want your money! they watch your actions.. which i seriously agreed to...we donate money but where does tt money go? who really knws? and god didnt ask us to donate he told us to help( with actions) hmm... and just from tt i'vev learn to appreciate what i have.. i feel tt i've grown alot.. well matured.. not tt i'm still not cranky adn blur n doin dumb things to my brother.. but yeah.. the mature thinking part has grown.. i used to be a shoppin freak someone who wasn't satisfied with life.. or self centred.. or jus too contented.. a.. anyway it's jus all things bad.. now when i look at things i do have the tendency to reflect like.. is it worth? shld i react tt way? do i realy need it? what' most impt thing at the present moment?.. like shoppin doesn't excite me tt much... even thou i haven been out for tt long i dun really mind anymore.. it's nice to have home a room to myself.. and it's nice to sit and eat with the family...from tt seminar god touched me i started cryin like a baby... nobody prayed for me at first.. but i felt tears in my eyes.. and i couldn't control it.. and when my leader prayed for me it became worse..it was as thou god stripped me and showed me everything i had and how he blessed me and the riches he had bestowed upon me and yet i am an ungrateful brat! hm.. i'll start with my family first...i'll start to love them more..if i cant stand the pple i live with wat more others... ok. tt was last wk i think.. haha i cant rem when her sem was..
movin on... yesterday i had so much fun with the kids for the touch clubs.. oh my.. kids really can stuck the strength out of u.. i was so hungry tt i ate.. a bowl of noodles, 3 garlic breads, 1 mushroom bun, 1 slice of bread, cod fish n mushroom soup! and wanwan n cranberry juice.. i had a hard stomach again! hahaha.. but yeah i had loadsa fun... and it was a longtime since i truly stood at the beach stonned..
and my bro has been slpin in my room.. i think it's becos he watches too much ghost stories and has all tt little ghost flyin in his head.. hahaha! church soon! cheerio! sorry no pictures foo foo..
d'eborah at 7:20 PM