Wednesday, April 25, 2007
hrmph!it's been a long time since i blogged.. anyway i think my blogskin is really not nice! haha.. but i'm jus too lazy to change or should i admit tt i dunno how to change! HAHA! anyway.. i'll stop using my blog to advertise alr.. my fren ah soh is helpin me to create a webby! very helpful... ok.. let's see.. i think i have alot to update but as usual i cant rem.. i'll start with my move to fcbc! it's refreshin and i do love my time there now.. i dun dread church(:
it's really scary to see how the devil works his way thru your life when you're no longer in the spiritual 'umberlla' / cover. let's see how S.A.TAN had his effect on me.. i felt really aimless like as if something jus sucked the joy out of me, i got paranoid again, i couldn't control my temper, i felt restless most of the time.. i started to keep alot of hatred inside me.. i lost hope easily n i started stuffin myself.. and i jus didn't want to go out.. so much of the time my cousin will drop me a visit..
strangely.. my conscious really bugs me alot... after god healed me, MIRACLE! i'm talkin abt my skin condition.. my conscious grew stronger.. dunno if anyone experienced tt b4.. i jus had to bring myself back on track... i wont knw how to express myself clearly cos the feelin of being so so burdened has weighted my life down terribly..initially i had the thot of goin to my parent's church but they didn't have a proper youth group.. i tried my cousin's church.. i loved the sermons.. seriously! but the youth group had a prob too.. so i finally called my best fren to help me... well thank god too.. i'm indeed grateful... EVERYTHING FELL INTO PLACE SO NICELY... literally everything...i love the way pple r genuine in cell.. the rubbish and the bonds i've managed to form.. it's great! thank you god.. i found the joy i've lost.. i nv told anyone this.. but on the second week after church... tt sunday night.. i cried.. happy tears of cos! i usually cry when i'm sad not happy.. so i cried happy tears to slp GRINS!
ok back to my weekdays.. i jus stopped workin at cocoa trees... only worked on thurs, fri and today last day! omgoodness.. tt place is like gossiping and backstabbing like nobody's business.. anyway.. today was my first and last day of opening the shop at 7am... i woke up at 545am.. thinkin i will make it in time.. but as usual la! my time estimation sucks.. i was late.. shop opened at 7;05.. i hope nth help cos the airport is really strict abt the openin of the shops.. now i knw why changi airport has such 'great' service.. well runnin up the escalator... i did something super duper unglam.. i tripped and PAH! my two hands were straight out in front of me.. i think alot of pple saw cos i fell at the arrival hall level.. brilliant deborah chen i told myself.. ok next i rushed to get the key from the lady who totally wanted to kill me.. haha! nvm abt tt... then i ran to the shop and cos the MARBLE FLOOR was squeaky clean and shiny! i did another 'graceful' move'.. i ran too fast and there wasn't enough time to stop and i 'graceful' crashed into the metal shutters... WOAH! a grand entarance i told crystal! hahaha and they were really heavy shutters i had to put it three times b4 tt stupid moved! gosh.. hahaha..
ok blame myself for being ignorant and blind or blur or wateva u call it... this man bought chocolates n said he only had US bills.. so yeah.. ok i'll call and ask for assistance on how to charge... so i did.. i thot everything went well... it was 11 US$ so i THOT he gave me two 10 US$.. then i gave him back his change and everything. ok then i had no idea why.. but i knw it's god.. he prompted me to check the money and HOLY SMOKES! i was... he gave me eleven US$ exact.. but maybe becos i dun see a US dollar everyday.. i saw one of the note as ten but it was a one dollar bill.. so i had to call my supervisor.. she was like... u very rich leh.. why u so blur... haiyohaiyo.. i was thinkin what's new... HAHAHA! so i have to put 11.20 back in the cash register.. oh well...
i'm anxious abt my uni application. like really really scared.. i want tt ADM course so badly.. i think i nv wanted anything so much in my life.. i hope i get it!
i miss my cousin): and my aust best fren and my ang ang who needs pimple advise n nicky who i dunno i jus miss him too haha! and daryl ang and monster(i think i'll meet them on sat)
OH YA! i join this community club by the touch prog.. i dunno but i jus have this love for children.. maybe someday i'll become a teacher like my mum... haha! i think i was really seriously teaching tt little kid.. haha
me:can u tell me your name so i can teach u and call u proper when i need to ask u a question
rai cong:no!
me: why?
rai cong: wait ltr u make fun at me
me: why would i do tt?
rai cong: cos my bro does tt.
me: but i'm not your bro i'm here to help u with your work n i promise i won't make fun of u too.so will u stil tell me?
rai cong: ---he keeps quiet
me: ok anyway i'm jiahui jiejie..
so i carried reading the next question...
then i was waiting for an answer to his question..
then he suddenly turns the book to the front cover and said: tt's my name! u promise u cannot make fun k!
me: pinky promise!
ahhaha so adorable.. but i think i'm cuter when i was his age! hahaha!
i'll try my best to update!
i forgot to say this.. I MISS MY CLASS 2T01.. somehow.. i miss sittin in the classroom listenin to mr ang.. and then he'll have to question me twice cos usually i cannot hear.. hahaha! or the teacher will say.. deborah why u have this distant look in your eyes! hahahaha... but i'm listenin! haha.. i miss meesua too...
ok i thing i will end here cos my show's here! weeee.. i love god n myself! and i have a new resolution.. i have the urge or shld i say the passion to help the poor and i will not take things for granted.. i'll try to keep tt in mind!
d'eborah at 7:49 AM