Sunday, January 28, 2007
thank you best fren for EVERYTHINGthe talks we had really felt like old times..
u said opposites attract? well yes maybe.. the strongheaded and easy goin part but no i dun think tt we are really tt diff.. sometimes i take things for granted sometimes pple ask who is your best fren deborah? i will jus she oh she's in aust studying..and sometimes i feel really lonely when i say tt.. haha i miss u tt's why! but yeah i get over it aftr awhile.. maybe this blur and forgetful brain of mine is of some good use after all eh? but not in a bad way when i say i get over it.
actually i'm not tt easy goin i think? esp when it comes to things close to the heart. i can be really protective and get hurt very easily if anything happens.. ya...like the incident at your dist cousin place! if u rem? hahaha!
anyway thanks for being part of life.. someone whom i will not forget for life. btw how's the cousin eh?
/ pass few weeks spent lots of time with my cousin.
and i'm startin to feel old and more independent AND startin to think of my future like way into my future? haha
spiritually i still feel dry i went to church i tried once? but i still feel lost in RL. somehow i keep having this feelin tt i shld go to my parents church but yet at the same time i dun wanna leave. i hate tt feelin i do hate it..
relationships . mummy's better now althou she nv fails to make me feels inadequate and dad still complains i'm fat! (BF my dad is still the same)
sometimes i cant stand my dad. his lackadaisical attitude. it pisses me off. payin fines for not doin his billings.when he spends all day bummin. he's really blessed with his own business but i'm jus scared he's takin his blessins for granted. if only he wasn't like tt if only he wouldn't be more serious and hardworking.sighs.. so yes i have been nagging at him to do his billings. looking at how uncle nick works to support his family and how he coaches his two daughters when they drive, the way they communicate really really made me more envious.. haha.. bad right? but yeah.. i shld be thankful i have a family and a roof above my head and i have three meals on e table blah blah blah
hm.... birthday was jus two days ago.. how time flies eh? 4 years or 4 n a half? sometimes i feel like an idiot for thinking.. sometimes i feel angry.. u left and everyone still remembers u? everyone thinks so highly of u i guess.. u made great frens and well.. i guess they knew wat happened and i somehow feel no one wanted me close to u. even my close frens and leaders. i got the look from them.hm.. tt thot brought back memories.. when she mentioned to jerry tt it was your bday. so wasn't even close to u. hm.. strange huh.. i feel like i'm blamed from something i didn't do. well it's good to let it off my chest.
chinese new year is jus around the corner... somehow i dun really enjoy chinese new year.. now tt i knw all the horrible things they do to my cousin. i jus cant understand why cant everyone jus live peacefully as one family. first money now some stupid secrets. they really have nth better to do.. and my cousins the are freaky! luckily for me i have two perfectly LOVELY cousin whom i love very much.. ed and may(: thanks.. u are my real family. real family members do not lie or cheat instead they look out for each other they share your joy! like both of u althou we're all caught up with our work but yeah!
tml it's skating...i haven started drawing yet.. and i have to tell someone something very impt but i dunno how to say it! god pls soften the person up!
cheers!
d'eborah at 7:02 AM