Friday, August 11, 2006
met up with foo again today(:made a new fren(:
ate sushi today(:
hm.. not a bad day?
somehow life has been mudane, dry and bein contented too easily?
somehow i seem to take life on surface value.. happy go lucky at times?
is tt wat i want? yes and no.. i'm tryin not to sit on the fence..
i keep feelin as thou something is missin? is it becos i haven been to church?
but goin to church doesn't mean tt you're a whole person right?
bein christian isn't all abt goin to church. most pple i know or i dare say are wat we call sunday christians.. they go to church puttin up a front and after tt, durin the entire week.. swear words, sickenin behave, u name it.. it all shows.. i dun want tt kinda thing.. i still feel inadequate n so full of.. u know.. sin! there are some things in my life i know i should be doin something abt it but i cant cos i'm too scared to face it...i think i have a really low self esteem.. i really do.. jus tt most pple cant tell.. i dunno why i'm bloggin abt this.. i wish for stupid things like bein perfect althou i know it's impossible.
sighs.. i miss sittin at the big rock all by myself.. with the wind in my hair.. oh man this entry sounds so sad and emo..
i wish i had a swing? i want a tree house too.. and someone pls take me for a ride on your bike? hahaha..
i think i over eat again): foo foo i feel like takin a walk again?
d'eborah at 6:38 AM